ready fortune, ours to claim
towards future, steady aim
a granted wish to end the pain
sprouting like the spark we felt
flames were fanned and hearts enspelled
crimson as the knife beheld
we soared into the night sky soon
and danced under a winter moon
that wrist not clutched one deadly noon
a place for eyes and souls to meet
we shared embraces, warm and sweet
you ran across that fateful street
sometimes forgotten why we play
the hands we're given every day
you came along to show the way
that power sorely missed
commit, retreat, discard, attack
embrace the heat or burn the deck
like time we're never given back
those moments filled with bliss
exquisitely when you might deign
but never asking why you reign
and still i drag on through the pain
not ready for this loss
for what if, say, i chose not wise
if this is how the vision dies
bleak options i feel on the rise
a bridge too hard to cross
on fertile ground for seeds of doubt
from joining up to checking out
mere number you can toss about
a fool that goes in blind
of feints i never should allow
and playing games so tired now
belay that thorny thought somehow
shunned to the egde of mind
for i'm not what you truly seek
can't be the one that makes you weak
the name you never dare to speak
no, i am but a toy
a stopgap chance, a little bite
just holding out for lightning strike
so tell me what your end game's like
what's my part in this ploy
precious moments to find few and far between
from rapture to rock bottom i careen
in this limbo squirming, can you see me crawl
and i wonder why you had to build that wall
outside this fortress i must scrounge perhaps
for stray saving grace like table scraps
without you there is no shelter from the storm
soaked under clouds with naught to keep me warm
by these phantoms all alone i am beset
the dark thoughts that i can't ever forget
a foe against which i cannot defend
at horizon's promise looms the bitter end
resurgence of despair i can't erase
and distant hopeful echoes i must chase
united in resistance we sustain
restlessly we march on through the rain
disregard the fell call of the void
near fatal but we will not be destroyed
in your presence i take shelter from the storm
you shield me from the clouds and keep me warm
whenever by these phantoms i'm beset
the dark thoughts only you make me forget
a foe against which you and i defend
together we will hold on till the end
wingless i stand in the stench of defeat
glued to the ground, the curse all over me
and that which fills the silence with whispers
i drink its bitter blend of truth and rumour
vain desire out of balance and time
false hopes between eternity and oblivion
why fill this restless heart to the brim
condemned to yearn i must sacrifice
somehow those elusive moments still find me
they trickle fast through my fingers like sand
salvation so close i can almost touch it
taunting and haunting, for i am not worthy
the fool's quest ends only one way
futile and cold after leftover chances
withheld like the missing pieces
never enough and always deprived
into a form forever unreachable
it fails to evoke that sensation
when it whispers those lies again
in which mere semblance cannot
none would fill that hollow outline
it fails to evoke that sensation
withheld like the missing pieces
in which mere semblance cannot
none would fill that hollow outline
never enough and always deprived
futile and cold after leftover chances
into a form forever unreachable
when it whispers those lies again
the fool's quest ends only one way
beyond wishes of old we are touched by the night
until dawn, like a candle, for warmth shall ignite
sprung from the tears and the joy that we share
in the depths of my heart i can still sense its flare
on the surface mere hints spectral facets reveal
making room for the complex reflections we steal
into twilight, the space in between, we submerge
to shoulder the weight of a whole universe
in the wake of times past when i hear you retell
the lore of things true and the myths to dispel
those stories of you light and shadow inscribe
entrusted to listen to you as my guide
into colors and shapes all these memories weave
in rare quiet moments, they grant us reprieve
a body turned poem, your canvas is skin
like the beautiful soul that shines from within
i trace every curve, every intricate line
want to read every word, every verse, every rhyme
drawn like a map for the journey we chose
and the dream of a day when you hold me close
from focal points of history
cast into triple mystery
thus threefold must the answer be
to lift the weight, to pay the price
just why - i merely rolled the dice
it's weird that it has happened thrice
in lion's den one lies asleep
amidst the stars one cannot weep
into adventure one shall leap
live and sustain
stride with love and grace
therein lies all purpose
hold tight and let go
thus poured day after day
wherefrom never ask
dine, dine on that fire
always more, drink up
what upholds this warmth
light up and give freely
even in this very moment
in the end something has to
to carry the burden
the joy and the solitude
burn brighter, ever brighter
no one will collect the ashes
joyfully strong and energetic
so they say, enrapt and magnetic
yet under the surface it's lonesome and cold
no one shall see the tears i withhold
beneath those cheerful masks i put on
ask me not can i ever belong
shrouded in mist, obscure and concealing
the single most elusive of feelings
but who can fill it with color
i cannot cut through the haze
and no one else has that power
forever stuck in this maze
the world stood in that one moment still
when you came true to rouse and fulfill
unprecedented your gift to revive
like a force of nature made me alive
every word
every smell
have you heard
can you tell
everything reminds me
every night
every day
out of sight
lost my way
searching that which can't be
but who can fill it with color
i cannot cut through the haze
and no one else has that power
forever stuck in this maze
and i have seen it in color
a glimpse outside of the haze
but only you had that power
why am i stuck this maze
on the thin line between curse and blessing
we see history through a shattered mirror
hollow echoes and circular questions
and you always ask the impossible
screams like scars etched into my mind
and the most harrowing plea of it all
some tales are better left untold
and you always ask the impossible
with open eyes you fumble in the dark
already forgotten are the when and the how
all these answers lost to the ages
and you always ask the impossible
day after day i reach out to you
all i ever see is your silhouette
standing motionless in the twilight
and you always ask the impossible
when i hold open yet another door
you demand entry to your prison
back into a life where you can fade away
and you always ask the impossible
compelled to lay down in these ruins
only you can dig through the rubble
again and again i hand you the shovel
and you always ask the impossible
once again we stand here together
once more thrown before the gates of fate
we clench our teeth and climb up the stairs
and you always ask the impossible
consider sisyphos, too close to the edge
remember atlas, crushed by the weight
and you always ask the impossible
and you always call my name
only the moon can hear my plea
underneath the silver tree
with every fiber in full bloom
by this vision i'm consumed
shining beacon in the night
my eyes devour your firelight
of all the endings i have seen
we are united in my dream
on bright wings to ferry
come chariot, carry
the stars for which we aim
set heavens and my heart aflame
ride like the tempest and whisk me away
wake me, take me, today
growing fierce and visceral
beyond the ephemeral
the sensations we effuse
and a brazen wish set loose
around a truth our souls revolve
behind the walls that soon dissolve
and description we defy
let us tear down the sky
on bright wings to ferry
come chariot, carry
the stars for which we aim
set heavens and my heart aflame
ride like the tempest and whisk me away
wake me, take me, today
within your light like crystal clear
i tread unknown terrain
in every moment i hold dear
the deepest longing burns sincere
shall never be in vain
through day and night i fantasize
determined to explore
mirage, perhaps, i glamorize
thus into action galvanized
and driven to adore
i bask before your stunning sight
exciting, dazzling, rare
entranced on this amazing flight
join hands and rise to dizzy height
we forge the chains we wear
where without maps we navigate
let's chance to take the stage
to yearn, enthuse and liberate
elated heat let radiate
beget a golden age
in times of peace that expire too soon
borrowed and volatile respite i'm granted
with anticipation and dread in equal measure
to beginning's end and end's beginning
powerless before such glacial advance
each new day overwhelmed and enmeshed
the rhythm of ambivalence never resolved
lest no one does it is i who must listen
under the force of misplaced tenacity
alternate realities disintegrate to dust
while i stay yet grasping for straws
and when i cry you wonder what reason
i mourn all the moments that you forfeit
wasted away in hindsight forlorn
i dream of the chances lost to standstill
overdue closure so adamantly refused
in this otherworldly calm we persist today
the never again and the almost forever
between the no longer and the not yet
i can but hold watch as you slumber
today
emerging in luminous thoughts
like symphonies spreading through space
speechless moments we share in the depth of yearning eyes
this place
where demons and angels unite
and soft clouds embrace fragrant dreams
protecting a treasure most precious from the storm
at last
joined in this rare point in time
together we carry the weight
in the mutual awe of a fragile dance we meet
unreal
such powerful fortune unfolds
the chain of events it would take
at the edge of this day i still stand in disbelief
today
emerging in luminous thoughts
like symphonies spreading through space
speechless moments we share in the depth of yearning eyes
and soon
in dreamlike reflection we smile
nearly missed our chance that would shape
this unwritten chapter of voyages entwined
to feel its soothing pulse again
over and over back into that prison
where demons wallow in shattered dreams
warping, coiling, overwhelming
day and night into ruin alone
sweeter the taste of oblivion
starving, trapping, soul tormenting
halted advance in dilated time
past and present ensnared in chains
circling, drowning, all-consuming
regret's shadow never finds rest
no way out for a toppled mind
in free fall around the twisting
pulled apart and never pieced together
can sleeping angels still hunger for life
and again and again and again
and again
and again and again and again
and again
in free fall around the twisting
circling, drowning, all-consuming
starving, trapping, soul tormenting
warping, coiling, overwhelming
to feel its soothing pulse again
and here you walk
not really you
and here you talk
yourself into
a recurring nightmare
please wake up again
don't give in
please
and here you walk
yes, sometimes you
and here you talk
yourself into
a little lucid moment
please don't leave again
stay with me
please
each step light as a feather
we wander through the snow
here hand in hand together
from heart to heart aglow
immersed in joyous chatter
so gentle, true and kind
the air filled with your laughter
warmed by your caring mind
your eyes lit up with wonder
a soul shining so bright
the spell that i am under
enchanted by your light
and again
and again and again and again
and again and again and again and again
and again
and again and again and again
and again and again
and again and again
and again
and again and again
and again and again and again and again
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and again and again
and again and again and again
and again and again
and again and again and again
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and again and again
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and again and again and again
and again
and again and again and again and again
and again and again
and again
and again and again and again
and again and again
timid steps shuffle across cold floors
your trembling voice still carries the load
empty eyes dart frightened through the hallway
a scared child locking onto the unreachable
in futile attempts to sleep and forget
inside these walls you hide from life
behold this museum for a grand existence
the final bastion of squandered chances
day after day you long for escape
and always run back into this hell
you chase the illusion of salvation
the beast that only you can tame
amidst our joyous moments i am deeply torn
behind the walls that i have built up early on
to tear them down it cannot ever be my place
a path better uncharted that i must not trace
the one thing that we do not to even entertain
i know a hundred perfect reasons to refrain
beyond that close horizon lots of dangers loom
but can we really blank this huge thing in the room
in a fragile balance we would have to hold
this chance to live fantastic stories yet untold
the many things that each of us has seen and done
so far into my journey, yours has just begun
well aware of all the rules we'd have to bend
therein lies unspoken power in your hands
for maybe what we need now is a little twist
the right word at the right time and i won't resist
