not even gods

by cries not even gods withstand
to stay unfazed i can't pretend
witness to the fallout of your wars

in pointless pursuit to the end
empty-handed, built on sand
chasing lifelines in this house of cards

once more hanging by a thread
your frail collection of regret
answers become writing on the wall

is this what justifies the dread
the final day, the course is set
no words of mine might ever stop the fall

when each farewell could be the last
whatever strength left to hold fast
i dare not entertain what lurks below

obscured until the die is cast
waste no more breath on shadows past
be here, be now, the way is to let go

(2023)

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lucky

you might not understand this song
but still i know you'd play along
by proxy, maybe - also sweet
in time your mom for you may read

some bundle full of energy
you grab attention cleverly
a live wire in black and white
how sad the fool you cannot smite

at long last you were gladly saved
to find the love you always craved
with kisses, treats and snuggles rife
here's to you living your best life

(2023)

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metronome

like sleepwalking i wander in a daze
the hall of broken mirrors set ablaze
in search of fivefold mutual desire
my restless soul dragged naked to the pyre

vain reflections, they bleed colors so delicious
in ardent dreams they linger, still ambitious
yet on my lips the taste of mere indulgence
i hunger in the face of this abundance

listened to, but never understood
heavy pumps the rhythm in my blood
footsteps to the saddest metronome
desolate the world i have to roam

rejection and perfection hand in hand
ease turn struggle, wish become command
for idle threats and empty promises
i open up to fill the emptiness

vain reflections, they bleed colors so delicious
in ardent dreams they linger, still ambitious
yet on my lips the taste of mere indulgence
i hunger in the face of this abundance

how come nothing i can say
how come i never hold such sway
my fingers to the bone i'm still clawing for the throne
when silent stay the tunes i get to dance all on my own

how come it's always just the same
how come alone i stand aflame
like a cruel repeated joke i keep trying to evoke
a fire without fuel should collapse in ash and smoke

vain reflections, they bleed colors so delicious
in ardent dreams they linger, still ambitious
yet on my lips the taste of mere indulgence
i hunger in the face of this abundance

(2023)

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