Showing posts with label sisyphos. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sisyphos. Show all posts

2023-12-19

december (the ending is not)

wide eyes transformed into quicksand
like black holes bending the dim light
and an instinct that forced me to stay

last year's hallways resounding still hollow
the cold lights, the glass nights, the circles
in a wasteland outstretched for miles

irresistible choices were fated
in a story of dark twists and left turns
for the one door i could not but close

so you slept, you hid and still clung to
a fairy tale turned into nightmare
not the life that was ripe to reclaim

of a sudden, however, you came to
something gave, and the floodgates thrown open
of a sudden you showed up alive

to windward now facing the unknown
this year of rebirth whispers wisdom
leave to die that which left you to die

(2023)

2023-04-23

not even gods

by cries not even gods withstand
to stay unfazed i can't pretend
witness to the fallout of your wars

in pointless pursuit to the end
empty-handed, built on sand
chasing lifelines in this house of cards

once more hanging by a thread
your frail collection of regret
answers become writing on the wall

is this what justifies the dread
the final day, the course is set
no words of mine might ever stop the fall

when each farewell could be the last
whatever strength left to hold fast
i dare not entertain what lurks below

obscured until the die is cast
waste no more breath on shadows past
be here, be now, the way is to let go

(2023)

2023-03-28

december (alternate ending)

ready fortune, ours to claim
towards future, steady aim
a granted wish to end the pain

sprouting like the spark we felt
flames were fanned and hearts enspelled
crimson as the knife beheld

we soared into the night sky soon
and danced under a winter moon
that wrist not clutched one deadly noon

a place for eyes and souls to meet
we shared embraces, warm and sweet
you ran across that fateful street

(2023)

2023-02-08

weight of the world

on the thin line between curse and blessing
we see history through a shattered mirror
hollow echoes and circular questions
and you always ask the impossible

screams like scars etched into my mind
and the most harrowing plea of it all
some tales are better left untold
and you always ask the impossible

with open eyes you fumble in the dark
already forgotten are the when and the how
all these answers lost to the ages
and you always ask the impossible

day after day i reach out to you
all i ever see is your silhouette
standing motionless in the twilight
and you always ask the impossible

when i hold open yet another door
you demand entry to your prison
back into a life where you can fade away
and you always ask the impossible

compelled to lay down in these ruins
only you can dig through the rubble
again and again i hand you the shovel
and you always ask the impossible

once again we stand here together
once more thrown before the gates of fate
we clench our teeth and climb up the stairs
and you always ask the impossible

consider sisyphos, too close to the edge
remember atlas, crushed by the weight
and you always ask the impossible
and you always call my name

(2023)

2023-01-10

liminal

in times of peace that expire too soon
borrowed and volatile respite i'm granted
with anticipation and dread in equal measure
to beginning's end and end's beginning

powerless before such glacial advance
each new day overwhelmed and enmeshed
the rhythm of ambivalence never resolved
lest no one does it is i who must listen

under the force of misplaced tenacity
alternate realities disintegrate to dust
while i stay yet grasping for straws
and when i cry you wonder what reason

i mourn all the moments that you forfeit
wasted away in hindsight forlorn
i dream of the chances lost to standstill
overdue closure so adamantly refused

in this otherworldly calm we persist today
the never again and the almost forever
between the no longer and the not yet
i can but hold watch as you slumber

(2023)

2022-12-18

sanctuary

today
emerging in luminous thoughts
like symphonies spreading through space
speechless moments we share in the depth of yearning eyes

this place
where demons and angels unite
and soft clouds embrace fragrant dreams
protecting a treasure most precious from the storm

at last
joined in this rare point in time
together we carry the weight
in the mutual awe of a fragile dance we meet

unreal
such powerful fortune unfolds
the chain of events it would take
at the edge of this day i still stand in disbelief

today
emerging in luminous thoughts
like symphonies spreading through space
speechless moments we share in the depth of yearning eyes

and soon
in dreamlike reflection we smile
nearly missed our chance that would shape
this unwritten chapter of voyages entwined

(2022)

black hole

to feel its soothing pulse again
over and over back into that prison
where demons wallow in shattered dreams

warping, coiling, overwhelming
day and night into ruin alone
sweeter the taste of oblivion

starving, trapping, soul tormenting
halted advance in dilated time
past and present ensnared in chains

circling, drowning, all-consuming
regret's shadow never finds rest
no way out for a toppled mind

in free fall around the twisting
pulled apart and never pieced together
can sleeping angels still hunger for life

and again and again and again
and again
and again and again and again
and again

in free fall around the twisting
circling, drowning, all-consuming
starving, trapping, soul tormenting
warping, coiling, overwhelming
to feel its soothing pulse again

(2022)

slipping

and here you walk
not really you
and here you talk
yourself into

a recurring nightmare
please wake up again
don't give in
please

and here you walk
yes, sometimes you
and here you talk
yourself into

a little lucid moment
please don't leave again
stay with me
please

(2022)

person in the gaps

each step light as a feather
we wander through the snow
here hand in hand together
from heart to heart aglow

immersed in joyous chatter
so gentle, true and kind
the air filled with your laughter
warmed by your caring mind

your eyes lit up with wonder
a soul shining so bright
the spell that i am under
enchanted by your light

(2022)

count to eight

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(2022)

lion's den

timid steps shuffle across cold floors
your trembling voice still carries the load

empty eyes dart frightened through the hallway
a scared child locking onto the unreachable

in futile attempts to sleep and forget
inside these walls you hide from life

behold this museum for a grand existence
the final bastion of squandered chances

day after day you long for escape
and always run back into this hell

you chase the illusion of salvation
the beast that only you can tame

(2022)