grey

joyfully strong and energetic
so they say, enrapt and magnetic
yet under the surface it's lonesome and cold
no one shall see the tears i withhold

beneath those cheerful masks i put on
ask me not can i ever belong
shrouded in mist, obscure and concealing
the single most elusive of feelings

but who can fill it with color
i cannot cut through the haze
and no one else has that power
forever stuck in this maze

the world stood in that one moment still
when you came true to rouse and fulfill
unprecedented your gift to revive
like a force of nature made me alive

every word
every smell
have you heard
can you tell
everything reminds me

every night
every day
out of sight
lost my way
searching that which can't be

but who can fill it with color
i cannot cut through the haze
and no one else has that power
forever stuck in this maze

and i have seen it in color
a glimpse outside of the haze
but only you had that power
why am i stuck this maze

(2023)

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