strange attractor (trans medley)

the water here is never still
my wish can't ever be fulfilled
for thievishly they stole my heart
below the waves it's torn apart

the taste of heaven on my tongue
its unpresence my hell inside
anticipating every night
into what i must fall

whenever i stare into that presence
it gazes back at me
acknowledging my existence
denying my identity
laughing at my grudge

strange attractor
meander on
circle, meet square
i never solved the puzzle
will you ever find your place


trying to follow
you just feel hollow
creeping in sorrow
attempt to evade

in the silver a face so alien
distorted shape of primal horror
casket for a crippled mind

now is all that's left
the last sliver of a me
chained to the unrelenting
to the grim arrow of time

and at one point
and you will have to break
oh, snap you will
at one point or later
the signs, they are everywhere


i have to witness the fabric of dream
rapidly falling apart at the seam
disruption of the concentrical sketch
by impacts on its invisible edge

the moment expands
until the waves
gentle sounds at the boundary
hint at your confinement

you've been longing for this chance
take this secret key
climb down the spider's net

magic, do your part
ride the wind and carve a body
from the dust at journey's end

(2021)

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