hard reset

false goodness of heart pretending
can't have a world upending
such beautiful lies deceiving
had you so long believing

from million to zero, there's no escape from the loop
another burnt child already used to the hoop
jump in and through and count down once more
obey, parade, parade, true face to the fore

embodiment of everything they despise
secretly they pray for your untimely demise
so better get going for the fight is now on
wake up, become, become, rise leviathan

for fallacy's sake contending
the keepers of lies intending
need you anticipating
ceaselessly iterating

false goodness of heart pretending
can't have a world upending
need you anticipating
ceaselessly iterating

phrases on repeat, always out of the blue
the same old tales, not even technically true
entertain at your peril the futile desire
let go, destroy, destroy, cast it into the fire

extinct beasts trying to preach shame and dread
we gave in to peer pressure from the dead
time to banish their specters to history
transcend, alive, alive, here's to victory

these chains were made for breaking
give them a good old shaking
hear the prelude to freedom
the keys to the kingdom, seize them

such beautiful lies deceiving
had you so long believing
hear the prelude to freedom
the keys to the kingdom, seize them

(2021)

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strange attractor (trans medley)

the water here is never still
my wish can't ever be fulfilled
for thievishly they stole my heart
below the waves it's torn apart

the taste of heaven on my tongue
its unpresence my hell inside
anticipating every night
into what i must fall

whenever i stare into that presence
it gazes back at me
acknowledging my existence
denying my identity
laughing at my grudge

strange attractor
meander on
circle, meet square
i never solved the puzzle
will you ever find your place


trying to follow
you just feel hollow
creeping in sorrow
attempt to evade

in the silver a face so alien
distorted shape of primal horror
casket for a crippled mind

now is all that's left
the last sliver of a me
chained to the unrelenting
to the grim arrow of time

and at one point
and you will have to break
oh, snap you will
at one point or later
the signs, they are everywhere


i have to witness the fabric of dream
rapidly falling apart at the seam
disruption of the concentrical sketch
by impacts on its invisible edge

the moment expands
until the waves
gentle sounds at the boundary
hint at your confinement

you've been longing for this chance
take this secret key
climb down the spider's net

magic, do your part
ride the wind and carve a body
from the dust at journey's end

(2021)

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ultraviolet

gently touched by rays of fire
yearning, calling, ineffable
tendrils of the awakened mind

time stretched to eternity
the possible at last in sight
all the things and all at once

in the wake of the rising sun
joy and sorrow blend most sublime
to map the long forgotten road

altered eyes will trace the contour
painting a picture with colors unseen
piece by piece the grand invisible

at dawn there is only i
navigator, cartographer
the justice words can never do

(2021)

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threshold

new light, the puzzle is completed
your foe, yourself, defeated
so rise and shine, break free

new light, now all lies bare and open
the fears, the dreams, the hope and
the truth for all to see

new light, the time has come for healing
embrace all these new feelings
outside, there's so much more

new light, the masks at last have fallen
so please no more stalling
get up, step through the door

(2021)

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unleashed

lightning, thunder, heavy rain
footsteps, breathing, feel the pain
conscious, knowing, wide aware
bruises, fractures, hard to bear

water, silver, broken voice
bastion, shelter, soothing noise
falling, rising, all the fears
cleansing, burning, free the tears

seeing, grasping, every clue
freedom, power, overdue
bursting, roaring, firestorm
trembling, kneeling, be reborn

(2021)

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resonance, catalyst, collapse

tremor at culmination's egde
with the force of a thousand echoes
in their resonance walls crumble
at last the visions take a shape

it can't be
i can't be

one last longing drops its disguise
as flashes, whispers, neon breeze
unveil the sweet and brutal catalyst
where the heavens scream a name

can it be
can i be

basking in the afterglow of the dream
the collapse arrives gently, almost playful
everything clicks into place
the right place, the only place

it is
i am

(2021)

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blasted mind

here's to the densest fool
climbing, crawling, stumbling past
over, under, into the forbidden
sweetest fleeting fantasy

ever when you scratched the surface
every chance and invitation
yet the thought remained elusive
never crossed this blasted mind

in the shadows, in the corners
always softly unaware
toes dipped into the forbidden
sweetest fleeting fantasy

every second near the deep
every time you could have dived
yet the truth remained elusive
never crossed this blasted mind

all the signs and all the moments
small and harmless, big and scary
to shily peek into the forbidden
sweetest fleeting fantasy

every glimpse into that world
every hint of this potential
your true self remained elusive
never crossed this blasted mind

(2021)

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connect/break the dots/egg

numbed/caged since/until forever
restless/longing
shackled/blinded
searching/stumbling
stuck/asleep in the fog/maze

clearly/maybe a path/exit
secret/impossible
distant/nearby
inexplicable/intractable
in the house/tower of fright/lies

the fragments/figments of a mystery/mind
voices/whispers
jealous/hungry
consuming/burning
a solution/gateway that never/always was

buried/forgotten she dreams/becomes
hollow/hidden
stranger/wanderer
question/answer
the immovable/unstoppable object/force

when at last the veil/dam melts/shatters
yearning/crying
flickering/grasping
beckoning/raging
the phoenix/angel will rise/fly

(2021)

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