to shape the void

once more, against the cold winds riding
all too familiar sights abound
once more into the abyss smiling
cocoon, swallow me gently

for the dream ends where the dream's ends
let me sink into the dreamless
and dissolve into a shapeless
where it smiles back at me

whisper softly, sweet empty
whisper softly and smile
travel time now, sweet empty
dissolve, dissolve, dis-


remember once upon the tiles
soaked fingertips seeking in vain

remember the wish once forbidden
no one would ever, ever know

remember how impossible
that image as painful as vivid

remember the vision, remember
wake up and give it shape


wake up, wake up, whisper softly
breathe in, breathe out, coalesce
let me cry now, sweet empty
now you smile back at me

(2023)

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on the tides

when roiling seas throw waves too tall
encroaching on the land
to rise and clash outside that wall
unfaltering you stand

upon a sturdy fortress built
to last through ages gone
but water knows not grudge nor guilt
in time it must move on

no monument shall yet outlive
those forces of the deep
to shut them off - what would i give
such turmoil do they reap

left writhing, drowning, cold and weak
alone in all but name
the words i must not ever speak
i pray them all the same

their push and pull become a theme
in vain i still implore
because i want, i have to scream
what is it even for

and yet - i see how unfulfilled
it's written in your eyes
consumed by yearning never stilled
you, too, look to the skies

(2023)

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