we're slaves to a dark crushing reality
bound to the depths and never truly free
by the giant ravenous we are swallowed whole
performing sacrifices, playing each our role
but we're also enthralled in a beautiful trance
enchanted and haunted by your wordless dance
and one day to slay them we shall defy the odds
good riddance, you whisper, to our deranged gods
now there's cracks in the surface, only vaguely outlined
our innate radiance for far too long outshined
feel beneath the pressure of a million tons
a glimpse of the fury of a thousand suns
but still in denial of that ancient power
unbroken the chains, even in darkest hour
salvation stolen and forever in silence
we sink alone into that voiceless defiance
and what do you behold beyond the unseen wall
why keep up the act, when is the curtain call
already gave us your all, even your very soul
you never, never, never merely played a role
2024-09-17
pantomines
Labels: leviathan
2024-05-07
im bann
wandelnd fernab meiner mitte
irre ziellos ich umher
fühle jeden meiner schritte
schmerzt die leere heute noch viel mehr
wo statt chancen doch nur wände
erneut spüre ich die last
außer ihr nur leere hände
viel gewagt und noch viel mehr verpasst
und ich regne, regne heute
tu es gleich dem firmament
regne sehnsucht, trauer, freude
denk an diesen einzigen moment
wir, im stillstand aller uhren
standen fest umschlungen da
teilten wärme und konturen
die erlösung schon zum greifen nah
ein gedanke, mehr ein flehen
warum hielt ich es zurück
um mich war es längst geschehen
sehe vor mir noch den augenblick
und ich regne, regne heute
tu es gleich dem firmament
regne sehnsucht, trauer, freude
denk an diesen einzigen moment
plötzlich fährt es wie vom himmel
weiß kaum wie mir noch geschieht
engelsgleich als jene stimme
in den bann mich nur noch tiefer zieht
Labels: eronaut
2024-05-02
not just any port
on waves and chances, tonight i ride
where bodies meld into a rhythmic tide
with gazes and movements they hypnotize
such magnetic pull i feel on the rise
out here in the dark for a moment aglow
how i feel and fall right into that flow
mere fever dream into which i am drawn
never seen, never heard, and forgotten at dawn
reject, eject, onto parts unknown
once more in the end i shall sail all alone
before wishes of mine almost given form
not just any port in this thunderstorm
oh night, why grant me this final embrace
to break my heart and the wall i must face
a cause for pause and to skip a beat
its lingering taste burning bittersweet
Labels: eronaut
2024-04-22
tiger
we are the ground
and the ground still wants
it hungers and screams
a demand we cannot oblige
we are the cage
paces reflected wall to wall
as standing waves and silence
us echoes of the exorcism
we are the door
the sound of plastic wrap foreboding
and entities clad in frowning
ever pouring the same questions
we are the salt
sweet smell of alcohol and chlorine
just solvents and agents and puzzles
we are all and one and none
Labels: solitude
2024-04-02
autopilot
only beyond the final edge
i realize, truly, i am
through many doors and motions
once more but never home
one thing after another
even unpacked they weigh
for i will always have to carry
the burden, the solitude, the joy
where else but elsewhere
while my mind remains adrift
one way or another i drown
ever the crushing silence
so i create a little bit of somehow
for comfort and survival
however hollow it may be
this, too, shall never pass
Labels: solitude
2024-03-19
rend, sunder, delete
maybe easy, easy seeming
ask not why, why, why
but an uphill, uphill battle
still i try, try, try
merely brittle, brittle armor
for my heart, heart, heart
it will shatter, shatter quickly
once you start, start, start
out of balance, balance fallen
torn to shreds, shreds, shreds
like a deadly, deadly poison
as it spreads, spreads, spreads
and a thousand, thousand needles
when it stings, stings, stings
only burning, burning anguish
that it brings, brings, brings
with an always, always loaded
smoking gun, gun, gun
for the trigger, trigger threatens
better run, run, run
Labels: disrecovery
2024-03-10
vanishing point
beyond the river
and into distance
between us, far and fleeting
the universe still expands
when i squint to windward
we are all beholden here
to space, and time
and our hearts
witness or master
the great divide
distance by longing
to overcome when overcome
ride the solar winds
take me any place where you
unlike these tracks that never cross
one day we'll meet again
Labels: eronaut
2024-02-18
together, brightly
where i melted away from your sigh
every second a perfect dream
now a memory, still agleam
together we sailed the sky
in the half-light i basked in your smile
every word said by you
enchanting but true
a new tale, amazing and wild
where i saw your reflection in steel
in the joy that you brought
sometimes breath barely caught
all the things you made me feel
in the half-light we savored and soared
caresses gentle and warm
swept away like a storm
headfirst into worlds unexplored
where the wind still whispers your name
we mixed like the galaxies
i can hear your melodies
together, brightly, we stood aflame
Labels: eronaut
2024-02-11
speechless
one hundred
forty thousand
four hundred
so fast they
where have you
how did it even
from here to now
cannot stop but
until again we
all at once all the time
can it really
wow
Labels: eronaut
2024-02-04
piranha
tão ousada quanto você
como vivendo o sonho fogoso
por favor, seja minha mestra hoje
me torno a piranha, hehehe
talvez um gosto bom você tem
em breve vou comer você também
eles não podem nos ferir
vamos recuperar agora
fica uma palavra potente
me chamo a piranha, hehehe
talvez um gosto bom você tem
em breve vou comer você também
me acorde, querida
me leve, me molde
me seduza, bonita
me educe, me liberte
sem vergonha, amiga
cheguei para reivindicar
talvez um gosto bom você tem
em breve vou comer você também
Labels: eronaut
2024-01-29
damocles
in fire and light
crimson shining the blade
by dawn we shall be unmade
as long since foretold
and by your hand
we end as we once began
as winds and times must change
the fates' whims rearrange
and steal that which we crave
to drown it in the waves
from silver threads untied
into the dark divide
an ocean deep and red
where all the tears are shed
in fire and light
crimson shining the blade
by dawn we shall be unmade
as long since foretold
and by your hand
we end as we once began
it wants but cannot be
what would i give to see
through whispers in the mist
on water moonlight kissed
like fading battle scars
and riddles in the stars
an insight please bestow
but we shall never know
in fire and light
crimson shining the blade
by dawn we shall be unmade
as long since foretold
and by your hand
we end as we once began
forbidden magic words
at saga's ending heard
vain dreams of yesteryear
shall hold no power here
let me behold your sight
before truth stains the night
the dreaded spell is cast
and we are free at last
in fire and light
crimson shining the blade
by dawn we shall be unmade
as long since foretold
and by your hand
we end as we once began
Labels: infrared
2024-01-09
pode ser
fly, fly to the raven's nest
where we become undone or one
how could i ever not succumb
gently caressed by words most mesmerizing
pode ser tudo
pode ser nada
pode ser nós
what is yet a message in a bottle
be it candle or blaze
i will burn in your gaze
drowned in the infinities of your eyes and
pode ser para sempre
pode ser o destino
pode ser só por hoje
what cannot be said will be wept
but all can be dared
because i prayed this word - i want
o seu sorriso e a sua voz
o seu toque e a sua alma
são os mais encantadores
sem você, estou com saudade
Labels: eronaut
2023-12-19
december (the ending is not)
wide eyes transformed into quicksand
like black holes bending the dim light
and an instinct that forced me to stay
last year's hallways resounding still hollow
the cold lights, the glass nights, the circles
in a wasteland outstretched for miles
irresistible choices were fated
in a story of dark twists and left turns
for the one door i could not but close
so you slept, you hid and still clung to
a fairy tale turned into nightmare
not the life that was ripe to reclaim
of a sudden, however, you came to
something gave, and the floodgates thrown open
of a sudden you showed up alive
to windward now facing the unknown
this year of rebirth whispers wisdom
leave to die that which left you to die
Labels: sisyphos
2023-10-29
to shape the void
once more, against the cold winds riding
all too familiar sights abound
once more into the abyss smiling
cocoon, swallow me gently
for the dream ends where the dream's ends
let me sink into the dreamless
and dissolve into a shapeless
where it smiles back at me
whisper softly, sweet empty
whisper softly and smile
travel time now, sweet empty
dissolve, dissolve, dis-
remember once upon the tiles
soaked fingertips seeking in vain
remember the wish once forbidden
no one would ever, ever know
remember how impossible
that image as painful as vivid
remember the vision, remember
wake up and give it shape
wake up, wake up, whisper softly
breathe in, breathe out, coalesce
let me cry now, sweet empty
now you smile back at me
Labels: metamorphosis
2023-10-09
on the tides
when roiling seas throw waves too tall
encroaching on the land
to rise and clash outside that wall
unfaltering you stand
upon a sturdy fortress built
to last through ages gone
but water knows not grudge nor guilt
in time it must move on
no monument shall yet outlive
those forces of the deep
to shut them off - what would i give
such turmoil do they reap
left writhing, drowning, cold and weak
alone in all but name
the words i must not ever speak
i pray them all the same
their push and pull become a theme
in vain i still implore
because i want, i have to scream
what is it even for
and yet - i see how unfulfilled
it's written in your eyes
consumed by yearning never stilled
you, too, look to the skies
Labels: infrared
2023-09-08
alice IX (rubicon)
underneath a burning why
and searing, aching blue-like sky
to shallow depths we cast the die
with the sound of a match gently stricken
by the river mouth, a squandered chance
by the river mouth we shall not dance
on tiptoe over scorching sand
why ever would the heat abate
what little passion left irate
at mere behest it cannot sate
convulsing empty, lost and charred
last embers of a wistful heart
for death spells a belated card
with the sound of a match gently stricken
by the river mouth washed ashore
by the river mouth, nevermore
on tiptoe over scorching sand
with the sound of a match gently stricken
by the river mouth, all shades of keen
behold the ocean - sweet, sweet gasoline
wake up and smell the ashes
Labels: alice
2023-08-31
minotaur
around and into corners stretched
once upon a footnote etched
with battered fingers searching blind
to piece apart a listless mind
trace wall to wall through every room
divine the words that spell yet doom
monster wretched, ask not why
loathsome, lonesome, 'tis but i
sentenced to the end of days
cast into that endless maze
relentless terror built from stone
like glass i stand to break alone
last vestiges of futile grace
lost into darkness giving chase
thus enter hero, mesmerize
the forlorn fate to finalize
down to strike me, strong and deft
relieve me of what fight still left
Labels: solitude
2023-08-08
snapshots of a new era
outside i pace in the scent of night
the wasteland lies dark, alien and homely
from siren songs to remind me of prison
in the hallway of tears i can hide for a while
a sound, a touch, an angel's voice
golden words drop like the weight
swift fingers mark ascension's countdown
and on your face a hint of understanding
warm wind paints today in soap bubbles and dust
i watch the beginnings of many a story
over and over we turn the wheel of fortune
against all odds we have each come full circle
from the depths rings the bringer of dawn
in a stark contrast between two worlds
thus here i stand - the known unknown
the open book, the phoenix risen
where gods of the ancients still walk amongst us
a spectacle of vibrant color we all become
let us spread wings and fly together
witness me dancing with the greats
Labels: altered world
2023-07-07
pretty little puzzle pieces
my tendency for the allegorical
historical never merely metaphorical
ideas best unstructured and yet categorical
the question marks us answers not rhetorical
i'm digging for some pretty little buried treasure
do i have to spell out my displeasure
hammer it home for good measure
y'all only ever listen at your leisure
with a notoriety for shocking impiety
in bold strokes you paint us a society
no room for desperately much-needed variety
just rigid caricatures of our anxiety
always synthetic and a bit pathetic
thin line between apathetic and frenetic
let's talk memetic, call it, if you will, poetic
neither hypothetic nor prophetic
meanwhile you got no time for archaeology
refuse to see the extent of totality
and maybe, just maybe, you owe me an apology
not some weak-ass tautology delivered at my eulogy
Labels: disrecovery
2023-06-21
day 846
i drew a bridge into the sand
your catalyst
my sacrifice
we only do what we must
everywhere you would step but across
out of sight
out of line
out of your goddamned mind
with words like thousand needles
how deep you cut
how long i bleed
together we shall drain all blood of meaning
let us not embrace before the grand collapse
and then it falls
and when we fall
one day you will understand the gravity
we raised glasses to a fragile peace
here's to our time
here's to the end
now feel wind scatter the remains
Labels: altered world