tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24584989614712925002024-03-18T02:31:38.762+01:00soul shards<i><a href="http://mephane.blogspot.com">risen from the ashes</a></i>capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.comBlogger212125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-364212395354245962024-03-10T10:25:00.001+01:002024-03-10T10:25:59.489+01:00vanishing pointbeyond the river<br />
and into distance<br />
between us, far and fleeting<br />
the universe still expands<br />
<br />
when i squint to windward<br />
we are all beholden here<br />
to space, and time<br />
and our hearts<br />
<br />
witness or master<br />
the great divide<br />
distance by longing<br />
to overcome when overcome<br />
<br />
ride the solar winds<br />
take me any place where you<br />
unlike these tracks that never cross<br />
one day we'll meet again<br />
<div class="year-written">(2024)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-33958103023891401172024-02-18T15:31:00.000+01:002024-02-18T15:31:26.537+01:00together, brightlywhere i melted away from your sigh<br />
every second a perfect dream<br />
now a memory, still agleam<br />
together we sailed the sky<br />
<br />
in the half-light i basked in your smile<br />
every word said by you<br />
enchanting but true<br />
a new tale, amazing and wild<br />
<br />
where i saw your reflection in steel<br />
in the joy that you brought<br />
sometimes breath barely caught<br />
all the things you made me feel<br />
<br />
in the half-light we savored and soared<br />
caresses gentle and warm<br />
swept away like a storm<br />
headfirst into worlds unexplored<br />
<br />
where the wind still whispers your name<br />
we mixed like the galaxies<br />
i can hear your melodies<br />
together, brightly, we stood aflame<br />
<div class="year-written">(2024)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-40495694961877882412024-02-11T17:59:00.002+01:002024-02-18T14:48:51.811+01:00speechlessone hundred<br />
forty thousand<br />
four hundred<br />
<br />
so fast they<br />
where have you<br />
how did it even<br />
<br />
from here to now<br />
cannot stop but<br />
until again we<br />
<br />
all at once all the time<br />
can it really<br />
wow<br />
<div class="year-written">(2024)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-10919068966716632592024-02-04T12:31:00.001+01:002024-02-20T12:21:49.315+01:00piranhatão ousada quanto você<br />
como vivendo o sonho fogoso<br />
por favor, seja minha mestra hoje<br />
me torno a piranha, hehehe<br />
<br />
talvez um gosto bom você tem<br />
em breve vou comer você também<br />
<br />
eles não podem nos ferir<br />
vamos recuperar agora<br />
fica uma palavra potente<br />
me chamo a piranha, hehehe<br />
<br />
talvez um gosto bom você tem<br />
em breve vou comer você também<br />
<br />
me acorde, querida<br />
me leve, me molde<br />
<br />
me seduza, bonita<br />
me educe, me liberte<br />
<br />
sem vergonha, amiga<br />
cheguei para reivindicar<br />
<br />
talvez um gosto bom você tem<br />
em breve vou comer você também<br />
<div class="year-written">(2024)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-65868117916957785042024-01-29T22:42:00.001+01:002024-02-05T12:39:34.307+01:00damoclesin fire and light<br />
crimson shining the blade<br />
by dawn we shall be unmade<br />
as long since foretold<br />
and by your hand<br />
we end as we once began<br />
<br />
as winds and times must change<br />
the fates' whims rearrange<br />
and steal that which we crave<br />
to drown it in the waves<br />
<br />
from silver threads untied<br />
into the dark divide<br />
an ocean deep and red<br />
where all the tears are shed<br />
<br />
in fire and light<br />
crimson shining the blade<br />
by dawn we shall be unmade<br />
as long since foretold<br />
and by your hand<br />
we end as we once began<br />
<br />
it wants but cannot be<br />
what would i give to see<br />
through whispers in the mist<br />
on water moonlight kissed<br />
<br />
like fading battle scars<br />
and riddles in the stars<br />
an insight please bestow<br />
but we shall never know<br />
<br />
in fire and light<br />
crimson shining the blade<br />
by dawn we shall be unmade<br />
as long since foretold<br />
and by your hand<br />
we end as we once began<br />
<br />
forbidden magic words<br />
at saga's ending heard<br />
vain dreams of yesteryear<br />
shall hold no power here<br />
<br />
let me behold your sight<br />
before truth stains the night<br />
the dreaded spell is cast<br />
and we are free at last<br />
<br />
in fire and light<br />
crimson shining the blade<br />
by dawn we shall be unmade<br />
as long since foretold<br />
and by your hand<br />
we end as we once began<br />
<div class="year-written">(2024)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-60222063132622325552024-01-09T16:04:00.003+01:002024-02-20T12:21:58.859+01:00pode serfly, fly to the raven's nest<br />
where we become undone or one<br />
how could i ever not succumb<br />
gently caressed by words most mesmerizing<br />
<br />
pode ser tudo<br />
pode ser nada<br />
pode ser nós<br />
<br />
what is yet a message in a bottle<br />
be it candle or blaze<br />
i will burn in your gaze<br />
drowned in the infinities of your eyes and<br />
<br />
pode ser para sempre<br />
pode ser o destino<br />
pode ser só por hoje<br />
<br />
what cannot be said will be wept<br />
but all can be dared<br />
because i prayed this word - i want<br />
<br />
o seu sorriso e a sua voz<br />
o seu toque e a sua alma<br />
são os mais encantadores<br />
sem você, estou com saudade<br />
<div class="year-written">(2024)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-48134515709924024082023-12-19T12:44:00.004+01:002023-12-19T15:24:16.683+01:00december (the ending is not)wide eyes transformed into quicksand<br />
like black holes bending the dim light<br />
and an instinct that forced me to stay<br />
<br />
last year's hallways resounding still hollow<br />
the cold lights, the glass nights, the circles<br />
in a wasteland outstretched for miles<br />
<br />
irresistible choices were fated<br />
in a story of dark twists and left turns<br />
for the one door i could not but close<br />
<br />
so you slept, you hid and still clung to<br />
a fairy tale turned into nightmare<br />
not the life that was ripe to reclaim<br />
<br />
of a sudden, however, you came to<br />
something gave, and the floodgates thrown open<br />
of a sudden you showed up alive<br />
<br />
to windward now facing the unknown<br />
this year of rebirth whispers wisdom<br />
leave to die that which left you to die<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-44076708350361156142023-10-29T18:01:00.000+01:002023-10-29T18:01:37.583+01:00to shape the voidonce more, against the cold winds riding<br />
all too familiar sights abound<br />
once more into the abyss smiling<br />
cocoon, swallow me gently<br />
<br />
for the dream ends where the dream's ends<br />
let me sink into the dreamless<br />
and dissolve into a shapeless<br />
where it smiles back at me<br />
<br />
whisper softly, sweet empty<br />
whisper softly and smile<br />
travel time now, sweet empty<br />
dissolve, dissolve, dis-<br />
<br />
<br />
remember once upon the tiles<br />
soaked fingertips seeking in vain<br />
<br />
remember the wish once forbidden<br />
no one would ever, ever know<br />
<br />
remember how impossible<br />
that image as painful as vivid<br />
<br />
remember the vision, remember<br />
wake up and give it shape<br />
<br />
<br />
wake up, wake up, whisper softly<br />
breathe in, breathe out, coalesce<br />
let me cry now, sweet empty<br />
now you smile back at me<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-47103344577700746632023-10-09T13:53:00.000+02:002023-10-09T13:53:48.511+02:00on the tideswhen roiling seas throw waves too tall<br />
encroaching on the land<br />
to rise and clash outside that wall<br />
unfaltering you stand<br />
<br />
upon a sturdy fortress built<br />
to last through ages gone<br />
but water knows not grudge nor guilt<br />
in time it must move on<br />
<br />
no monument shall yet outlive<br />
those forces of the deep<br />
to shut them off - what would i give<br />
such turmoil do they reap<br />
<br />
left writhing, drowning, cold and weak<br />
alone in all but name<br />
the words i must not ever speak<br />
i pray them all the same<br />
<br />
their push and pull become a theme<br />
in vain i still implore<br />
because i want, i have to scream<br />
what is it even for<br />
<br />
and yet - i see how unfulfilled<br />
it's written in your eyes<br />
consumed by yearning never stilled<br />
you, too, look to the skies<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-16675748067582873872023-09-08T11:57:00.001+02:002023-09-12T14:03:08.306+02:00alice IX (rubicon)underneath a burning why<br />
and searing, aching blue-like sky<br />
to shallow depths we cast the die<br />
<br />
with the sound of a match gently stricken<br />
by the river mouth, a squandered chance<br />
by the river mouth we shall not dance<br />
on tiptoe over scorching sand<br />
<br />
why ever would the heat abate<br />
what little passion left irate<br />
at mere behest it cannot sate<br />
<br />
convulsing empty, lost and charred<br />
last embers of a wistful heart<br />
for death spells a belated card<br />
<br />
with the sound of a match gently stricken<br />
by the river mouth washed ashore<br />
by the river mouth, nevermore<br />
on tiptoe over scorching sand<br />
<br />
with the sound of a match gently stricken<br />
by the river mouth, all shades of keen<br />
behold the ocean - sweet, sweet gasoline<br />
wake up and smell the ashes<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-86738562087961189972023-08-31T01:31:00.001+02:002024-02-20T12:20:15.091+01:00minotauraround and into corners stretched<br />
once upon a footnote etched<br />
<br />
with battered fingers searching blind<br />
to piece apart a listless mind<br />
<br />
trace wall to wall through every room<br />
divine the words that spell yet doom<br />
<br />
monster wretched, ask not why<br />
loathsome, lonesome, 'tis but i<br />
<br />
sentenced to the end of days<br />
cast into that endless maze<br />
<br />
relentless terror built from stone<br />
like glass i stand to break alone<br />
<br />
last vestiges of futile grace<br />
lost into darkness giving chase<br />
<br />
thus enter hero, mesmerize<br />
the forlorn fate to finalize<br />
<br />
down to strike me, strong and deft<br />
relieve me of what fight still left<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-88233190780202547472023-08-08T13:26:00.001+02:002023-08-09T22:48:29.315+02:00snapshots of a new eraoutside i pace in the scent of night<br />
the wasteland lies dark, alien and homely<br />
from siren songs to remind me of prison<br />
in the hallway of tears i can hide for a while<br />
<br />
a sound, a touch, an angel's voice<br />
golden words drop like the weight<br />
swift fingers mark ascension's countdown<br />
and on your face a hint of understanding<br />
<br />
warm wind paints today in soap bubbles and dust<br />
i watch the beginnings of many a story<br />
over and over we turn the wheel of fortune<br />
against all odds we have each come full circle<br />
<br />
from the depths rings the bringer of dawn<br />
in a stark contrast between two worlds<br />
thus here i stand - the known unknown<br />
the open book, the phoenix risen<br />
<br />
where gods of the ancients still walk amongst us<br />
a spectacle of vibrant color we all become <br />
let us spread wings and fly together<br />
witness me dancing with the greats<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-60216840116967143452023-07-07T14:33:00.000+02:002023-07-07T14:33:16.594+02:00pretty little puzzle piecesmy tendency for the allegorical<br />
historical never merely metaphorical<br />
ideas best unstructured and yet categorical<br />
the question marks us answers not rhetorical<br />
<br />
i'm digging for some pretty little buried treasure<br />
do i have to spell out my displeasure<br />
hammer it home for good measure<br />
y'all only ever listen at your leisure<br />
<br />
with a notoriety for shocking impiety<br />
in bold strokes you paint us a society<br />
no room for desperately much-needed variety<br />
just rigid caricatures of our anxiety<br />
<br />
always synthetic and a bit pathetic<br />
thin line between apathetic and frenetic<br />
let's talk memetic, call it, if you will, poetic<br />
neither hypothetic nor prophetic<br />
<br />
meanwhile you got no time for archaeology<br />
refuse to see the extent of totality<br />
and maybe, just maybe, you owe me an apology<br />
not some weak-ass tautology delivered at my eulogy<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-45972722205406321322023-06-21T10:54:00.001+02:002023-06-21T10:59:13.895+02:00day 846i drew a bridge into the sand<br />
your catalyst<br />
my sacrifice<br />
we only do what we must<br />
<br />
everywhere you would step but across<br />
out of sight<br />
out of line<br />
out of your goddamned mind<br />
<br />
with words like thousand needles<br />
how deep you cut<br />
how long i bleed<br />
together we shall drain all blood of meaning<br />
<br />
let us not embrace before the grand collapse<br />
and then it falls<br />
and when we fall<br />
one day you will understand the gravity<br />
<br />
we raised glasses to a fragile peace<br />
here's to our time<br />
here's to the end<br />
now feel wind scatter the remains<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-47798062297265650492023-06-13T13:15:00.004+02:002023-06-13T13:21:53.166+02:00train of thought / masquerade<div style="text-align: left;">once upon a whisper not a shout<br />
customizable bore and sacrificed fear<br />
utterly bland like all the rest here<br />
gotta check it out get it checked out<br />
so anyway here's music for sore ears</div><br />
<div style="text-align: right;">derail, derail (to no avail)<br />
let it slip, let it slip (just a little bit)<br />
gotta run, gotta run (the dance is on)</div><br />
<div style="text-align: left;">when trains collide the safest place<br />
back at the back not back on track<br />
and just in case enchase this phrase<br />
it sounds like martian ack ack ack<br />
so anyway go back to outer space</div><br />
<div style="text-align: right;">such potential tap, tap, tap<br />
(just a bit, just a bit)<br />
give me prizes, clap, clap, clap<br />
(let it slip, let it slip)</div><br />
<div style="text-align: left;">on stakes as high as are as dee<br />
makes all things always out to be<br />
like snails impaled once more curtailed<br />
i ran and slipped again derailed<br />
so anyway just a fairytale</div><br />
<div style="text-align: right;">(the obscure experience of being<br />
so well-adjusted and -behaved<br />
that no one ever ever everest<br />
from the highest mountain to<br />
the deepest deep is deeper<br />
you got to love this language<br />
definitely a keeper more like<br />
half a dozen in a trenchcoat<br />
also that rhyme's an odd one out<br />
so anyway where was i)</div><br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-44869389375095688632023-06-01T15:55:00.002+02:002023-06-06T15:41:08.142+02:00 moonstruckrestless head keeps wandering, unable to think straight<br />
stuck in circles, pondering, on that day fixate<br />
one thought in endless loop, spell bound and caught in one fell swoop<br />
<br />
was intrigued when you stood out, and all the signs were there<br />
had no idea just how good, what magic in the air<br />
now i can hardly wait, to seize this chance i shall not hesitate<br />
<br />
on the spur of the moment, as time and spirits fly<br />
let's just keep on going and rise up to the sky<br />
<br />
in lasting high so captivating, i dare not say it loud<br />
when every word found resonating that palace in the clouds<br />
a kindred mind, it's almost spooky, inside those moony eyes<br />
astonished how such dreamlike beauty can wake the butterflies<br />
<br />
amazed just how immense, how fast it became clear<br />
candidly, it's so intense i'm overwhelmed to tears<br />
moonstruck, head over heels - i know, it sounds a bit surreal<br />
<br />
on the spur of the moment, as time and spirits fly<br />
let's just keep on going and rise up to the sky<br />
<br />
in lasting high so captivating, i dare not say it loud<br />
when every word found resonating that palace in the clouds<br />
a kindred mind, it's almost spooky, inside those moony eyes<br />
astonished how such dreamlike beauty can wake the butterflies<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-8255110090229205902023-05-24T11:37:00.002+02:002023-06-12T13:42:32.287+02:00a little spicynever got the hang in there<br />
in a mad rush must this engage<br />
run like a common thread the needle<br />
poised on a blurry line lapse<br />
<br />
rise and fall flat out of control<br />
still got another more to wage<br />
let's cut to the chase loose ends<br />
add some flavor to will in the gaps<br />
<br />
to hold me close off another chance<br />
settle into that fast minute rage<br />
it's bad form upon a pattern<br />
just one or too spicy perhaps<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-53221493455622317502023-05-23T13:27:00.001+02:002023-05-23T13:27:53.661+02:00omegathe black crystal cracks with a thundering roar<br />
the face of the goddess is breached<br />
refulgence behold in the quake of this voice<br />
as the dream of divine love is reached<br />
<br />
the word at the start, from the abyss deep down<br />
begins pouring out into the night<br />
nascent echoes of cosmos within blazing storms<br />
an explosion of absolute light<br />
<br />
soon future burns down from celestial heights<br />
like thousands of suns glowing red<br />
when stars are ignited in luminous spray<br />
we shall suffer the tiniest death<br />
<br />
souls shine resplendent from glistering heat<br />
for the great oblivion we thirst<br />
blinding the frenzy of spirits enrapt<br />
to give rise to a new universe<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-88114256129793965192023-05-09T12:52:00.000+02:002023-05-09T12:52:01.490+02:00pandora's boxon borrowed time rings hollow on a rollercoaster ride<br />
she who rises from a state of drawn-out suicide<br />
gradual, perpetual, the slow-burn casual trauma<br />
somehow survived that subliminal epic drama<br />
<br />
escaped from desperate recycled anonymity<br />
renewed with energy, goes magnetic in proximity<br />
unleashed with just the right dose of extravagant<br />
perfectly defect - what fuels your bafflement<br />
<br />
why sprinkle salt on wounds like gawking from the grandstand<br />
not so funny throwbacks to some quirky wasteland<br />
why make her hum those off-key tunes about a time that wasn't<br />
eerily cheery requiem for disasters measured by the dozen<br />
<br />
assurances don't matter if they shatter with impunity<br />
proclaim it's all the same to you then retract quietly<br />
why execute what disputes all she constitutes<br />
inaction betrays the words you speak in absolutes<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-12340906063131908532023-05-04T17:56:00.000+02:002023-05-04T17:56:38.761+02:00incandescenta spectacle to celebrate<br />
i'm grateful to participate<br />
tonight grants me the circumstance<br />
one glimpse into such radiance<br />
<br />
long overdue and well deserved<br />
next door your laughter, full of verve<br />
and more than ever, soon at hand<br />
first step to dream's fruition grand<br />
<br />
however small, i did my bit<br />
thus may you revel, fire lit<br />
dots reconnect and strike that path<br />
now blossom in the aftermath<br />
<br />
awash in colors bright and true<br />
most treasured memory of you<br />
by afterglow in infrared<br />
with renewed power forge ahead<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-58163699676435407522023-04-23T20:02:00.001+02:002023-04-23T20:02:59.209+02:00not even godsby cries not even gods withstand<br />
to stay unfazed i can't pretend<br />
witness to the fallout of your wars<br />
<br />
in pointless pursuit to the end<br />
empty-handed, built on sand<br />
chasing lifelines in this house of cards<br />
<br />
once more hanging by a thread<br />
your frail collection of regret<br />
answers become writing on the wall<br />
<br />
is this what justifies the dread<br />
the final day, the course is set<br />
no words of mine might ever stop the fall<br />
<br />
when each farewell could be the last<br />
whatever strength left to hold fast<br />
i dare not entertain what lurks below<br />
<br />
obscured until the die is cast<br />
waste no more breath on shadows past<br />
be here, be now, the way is to let go<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-52497608439441094882023-04-17T09:51:00.002+02:002023-04-17T09:55:05.757+02:00luckyyou might not understand this song<br />
but still i know you'd play along<br />
by proxy, maybe - also sweet<br />
in time your mom for you may read<br />
<br />
some bundle full of energy<br />
you grab attention cleverly<br />
a live wire in black and white<br />
how sad the fool you cannot smite<br />
<br />
at long last you were gladly saved<br />
to find the love you always craved<br />
with kisses, treats and snuggles rife<br />
here's to you living your best life<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-8735218534648299222023-04-07T03:27:00.004+02:002023-08-31T01:03:55.241+02:00metronomelike sleepwalking i wander in a daze<br />
the hall of broken mirrors set ablaze<br />
in search of fivefold mutual desire<br />
my restless soul dragged naked to the pyre<br />
<br />
vain reflections, they bleed colors so delicious<br />
in ardent dreams they linger, still ambitious<br />
yet on my lips the taste of mere indulgence<br />
i hunger in the face of this abundance<br />
<br />
listened to, but never understood<br />
heavy pumps the rhythm in my blood<br />
footsteps to the saddest metronome<br />
desolate the world i have to roam<br />
<br />
rejection and perfection hand in hand<br />
ease turn struggle, wish become command<br />
for idle threats and empty promises<br />
i open up to fill the emptiness<br />
<br />
vain reflections, they bleed colors so delicious<br />
in ardent dreams they linger, still ambitious<br />
yet on my lips the taste of mere indulgence<br />
i hunger in the face of this abundance<br />
<br />
how come nothing i can say<br />
how come i never hold such sway<br />
my fingers to the bone i'm still clawing for the throne<br />
when silent stay the tunes i get to dance all on my own<br />
<br />
how come it's always just the same<br />
how come alone i stand aflame<br />
like a cruel repeated joke i keep trying to evoke<br />
a fire without fuel should collapse in ash and smoke<br />
<br />
vain reflections, they bleed colors so delicious<br />
in ardent dreams they linger, still ambitious<br />
yet on my lips the taste of mere indulgence<br />
i hunger in the face of this abundance<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-71719318333920157262023-03-28T12:23:00.004+02:002023-03-28T14:57:41.904+02:00december (alternate ending)ready fortune, ours to claim<br />
towards future, steady aim<br />
a granted wish to end the pain<br />
<br />
sprouting like the spark we felt<br />
flames were fanned and hearts enspelled<br />
crimson as the knife beheld<br />
<br />
we soared into the night sky soon<br />
and danced under a winter moon<br />
that wrist not clutched one deadly noon<br />
<br />
a place for eyes and souls to meet<br />
we shared embraces, warm and sweet<br />
you ran across that fateful street<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2458498961471292500.post-63354514097445042702023-03-19T13:22:00.001+01:002023-03-19T13:22:59.736+01:00queen of heartssometimes forgotten why we play<br />
the hands we're given every day<br />
you came along to show the way<br />
that power sorely missed<br />
<br />
commit, retreat, discard, attack<br />
embrace the heat or burn the deck<br />
like time we're never given back<br />
those moments filled with bliss<br />
<br />
exquisitely when you might deign<br />
but never asking why you reign<br />
and still i drag on through the pain<br />
not ready for this loss<br />
<br />
for what if, say, i chose not wise<br />
if this is how the vision dies<br />
bleak options i feel on the rise<br />
a bridge too hard to cross<br />
<br />
on fertile ground for seeds of doubt<br />
from joining up to checking out<br />
mere number you can toss about<br />
a fool that goes in blind<br />
<br />
of feints i never should allow<br />
and playing games so tired now<br />
belay that thorny thought somehow<br />
shunned to the egde of mind<br />
<br />
for i'm not what you truly seek<br />
can't be the one that makes you weak<br />
the name you never dare to speak<br />
no, i am but a toy<br />
<br />
a stopgap chance, a little bite<br />
just holding out for lightning strike<br />
so tell me what your end game's like<br />
what's my part in this ploy<br />
<div class="year-written">(2023)</div><hr />capiVarahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03569650788698188886noreply@blogger.com0